Do you need to feel pretty? Well, I do. I know it's rather a shallow goal in life but doggone, I want to be pretty! And pretty doesn't come naturally to me. Don't bother commenting that you think I'm beautiful (some of you are already typing aren't you?) Doesn't matter, pretty is in the eye of the beholder and I am the beholder. So I guess you can add vain to pretty.
Twenty five pounds of extra weight has me less than thrilled with my appearance and the answer to that is clear so we'll move on.
I don't necessarily need to be the prettiest person in the room or even to know that other people think I'm pretty but I want to feel pretty. Of course, we all know the enemy number one of prettiness...bad hair. I have bad hair. Charles Manson would be ashamed to have my hair. And I have taken note of people running from the Twin Towers or standing on their roof tops during Katrina and thought to myself, "Their hair looks really good." I have looked at patients and thought that the worst part of a psychiatric hospitalization would have to be the lack of access to styling tools. I'd never look stable enough for discharge! Ironically, I am forever in search of a fabulous do that requires absolutely no effort as I hate styling my hair.
Something magical (and by that I mean dark magic) happened to my face around age 40. It went from marginally acceptable to impossible to figure out. I have dark circles that cannot be hidden. Well, perhaps if I purchased the $40 Oil Of Olay eye care system that I spent 1/2 an hour considering at Target they could be. But within my current beauty budget it's impossible. I have scant eye lashes and I actually have bad eye lash days. Seriously.
I continually change my make-up regime trying to examine the beautiful people on television and mimic their cosmeteticals. One month I will be convinced darker lips are the thing that I need! Next month, clear gloss is the answer! Darker foundation to warm me up or lighter to make me shimmer? And what exactly does one look like when shimmering? There's a lot of promises of shimmering out there but I'm not seeing any difference in the mirror.
Don't get me started on my teeth! I actually (true story) have recurring nightmares about my teeth.
Still, I want to feel pretty. There is no conclusion to this post. I'm just saying...