Friday, June 10, 2011

Little foxes~

I really need a vacation! Lots of little foxes chewing on my vines lately & I've come to the conclusion that I need to find a fox-free zone for some mental R&R. I am off today which is good however, that's because I'm working the weekend, which is not good. In short, that means today I will run around like a wild woman getting my list of errands done and Monday (my next day off) will be spent recovering from the weekend. I know, I'm whiny. Sorry. Having a bit of a melancholy outlook lately. I'll get over it. Unfortunately I'm one of those people who is a loner on a good day so when I feel the world pressing a little too close, the only cure for me is complete aloneness and quietness...not easy to find.
Because I am someone who isn't all that social in the first place, I am usually very hesitant to confront people or put boundaries on situations because I don't trust my own instinct since that instinct would be to just snap at or walk away from people instead of healthy interaction. And since I am of such emotional make-up, honestly, I want to put an end to anything that becomes too high maintenance. Too honest? Ah well, that's what blogs are for.
So what I'm saying is, not unlike the autistic people I care for at work, people really wear me out. After a couple of run-ins I start to feel soul dry. This has been a week for run-ins. Moderately unpleasant situation that most people just put into perspective and move on take a little bit of a toll on me. The devil knows, doesn't he? God knows too, so it's going to be fine. I just need to find my wellspring of quietness, solitude and reset my heart back to peaceful.
One more cup of coffee on the back porch, which is cool and lovely at the moment. Then I will get myself in gear for those errands. So if you happen upon me and I seem distant it's just that I'm concentrating on getting myself back in balance. Days like these are the perfect reminders of just how much Jesus I need to cover all of the Sara.

Catch for us the foxes, the little foxes that spoil the vineyards. For our vines have tender blossoms. Song of Solomon 2:15


Odie Langley said...

We are sooooooooooooo much alike.

Diane said...

Oh my, you are your Momma's daughter, aren't you?! Enjoying the quiet seems like a quality to hold dear; quiet is so hard to come by in this age of constant entertainment and newsfeed. Praying your day wasn't too stressful and that the weekend goes well.

Many hugs...........