Sunday, September 30, 2007

Forgive Me, For I Have Sinned...

We make life so complicated, we mortal men. We make much of little and little of the greater things. I have cried over too-tight jeans more than over people. I've thrown thousands of dollars at clothes and shoes over my lifetime and hundreds at food for the hungry. I think so much about God and yet have so little of him in my life. This, I think, is why I was not immediately taken to heaven upon my salvation. I am myself saved and yet so lost in so many ways. I need these years to make my salvation real in the world.
I actually said to God, this morning in the shower, something so ridiculous I am ashamed. Thinking of a man who I am friends with I wonder if he really knows Jesus, or just tries to play the part. So I said to God, "Lord, if you want me to speak to him and ask him bluntly about his salvation I will. Just tell me if you want me to do this."
God forgive me. Do I really need a voice from heaven to tell me that if I've doubt about the state of someones heart I should ask them about it? Why would I not? Why would I leave room for doubt when hell is the other option? Am I being polite? I'll tell you this, my hesitation is not rooted in love.
I thought today also of a young girl I know. Her family doesn't know the Lord. Her mom is not a mom who speaks Jesus into her life. And I thought to myself, maybe I should be her spiritual mom. Really? Maybe? Do I really think that God would prefer I did not extend myself in such a way?
There is a Christianity that I lose track of in my spirituality. I have made something too complicated of my role in the world. I need only to stand, feet spread wide firmly planted on earth. I need to reach one hand to heaven and firmly grasp my Lord's hand. I need to reach the other one as far as I can stretch to hold hands with anyone I can reach.
The results are not mine to tally. The effort is mine to answer for.

John 21:17 The third time he said to him, "Simon son of John, do you love me?" Peter was hurt because Jesus asked him the third time, "Do you love me?" He said, "Lord, you know all things; you know that I love you."

Jesus said, "Feed my sheep.


Louise said...

Oh Sara, what you've written speaks to my heart. We have indeed made much of little and little of greater things. We have not taken God's Word as truth..simple, everday, every-issue truth and lived it as He desires us to. We simply need to 'be' the people He has created us to be. People who love Him unreservedly, trust Him explicitly and obey Him without questioning. Thank you for writing this. We so need to hear that which doesn't tickle our ear. Time is short! Jesus is coming soon! May we be about our Father's business!

Deb said...

Lord, help each of us say, "I don't know You will use me today - but please use me for Your glory and to further Your Kingdom. And let me not be complacent or hesitant or wavering - but give me the courage and boldness to speak Your truth in love."


Great post Sara!

Trish said...

Sara you speak such truth here!
We should be more upset about those lost or in need! The trivial
things of this life - clothes,
weight, or obsessing about aging
as alot of people I know do,mean
nothing to our Lord!!
Have we touched a life, I mean really made a difference?
Thank you,sweet girl!

KayMac said...

Been out of town and just catching...Great "several" posts!

Becky said...

java nut! what can be said?

tina fabulous said...

i dont know why its so difficult to ask someone where their heart is, but it is.
maybe we dont want to believe that someone we love isnt where we stupidly assumed they were because having that particular conversation would be entirely too awkward for everyone involved and require some sort of action we didnt want to take due to reasons we dont know?

not that we know anything about that...

Margie said...

I love this post, I think I am going to post about feeding sheep today or tomorrow.