Wednesday, February 20, 2008

Sacred Day

I just opened an e mail from my mom with pictures of Amber's family including new baby Hudsyn. This is Arlene's grandbaby.
It is September 29 at 1:26 p.m. Hudsyn arrived last evening shortly after 10:00.
I think Arlene is going to go home now. Soon I mean. I feel a deep silence that feels like the settling of it all. Not in a manner of hopelessness but of completeness. It feels complete to me. Deeply sacred completeness.
I showed Dean the pictures but didn't tell him my thoughts. I write them here with heaviness although it is not dread. I wonder if I will delete this in a month or a year and wonder at myself for being so morbid.
Now I feel like the waiting for the call has begun. I think my chest will tighten with the telephone's ring at least for a while. I am, perhaps, succumbing to a drama that will lighten with the passing of a few days.
I have thought for two months that Arlene was only lightly tethered to this world. I have thought for one month that she is more of heaven than earth now. And so I wait, again, in deep and quiet places.
And I write this to remind myself that when the telephone rings, I had deep and quiet peace today when I realized the time was near.
Jesus, if you draw near now to bring her home; let it be sweet and painless.

Come now angel band, Come and around me stand; Oh bear me away on thy snowy wings to my immortal home Oh bear me away on thy snowy wings to my immortal home.

Today Arlene walks with Jesus finally, among the orange flowers. Weep for us who love her and not for her. By His stripes she is healed.

Voran Funeral Home
23750 Goddard Road
Taylor, MI 48180

Visitation Thursday 6-9 p.m.; Friday 1-9 p.m.
Homegoing Celebration Saturday 10:00 a.m.


Louise said...

A beautiful post Sara ... and yes, this day is sacred and will be remembered as Arlene's home-going day. She is not dead, she lives ... in the presence of the King she is more alive right now than she's ever been. She walks where angels trod and greets those who have gone before her ... then she'll wait for those who will come later. She is Home. Praise the Lord who creates all things for His pleasure, she is Home with Him.

Trish said...

Yes, a sacred day... as David says in the Psalms...
Blessed in the sight of the Lord is the death of His Saints.
Psalms 116:15

Mrs. Mac said...

By His Stripes! She now walks with the Father! Amen

Deb said...

In His presence --there's fullness of joy --peace everlasting --love beyond measure ---and endless fields of orange flowers!

Arlene is rejoicing this day with our Lord - healed - completely. be absent from the body is to be present with the Lord!
II Corinthians 12:14

God's daughter said...

As I told my young child of Arlene's passing, my little one said, "Mommy I'm sad for Miss Arlene." I said, "Baby, don't be sad, Miss Arlene is in the most beautiful, glorious, perfect place! She gets to see God's face and worship Him! SHE is HAPPY!! Of course we will miss her, but truly she is home now!!"

If you can see what I see said...

I am praying for you so much tonight and for your Dad. I hope that my dream that I had last sunday brought you much peace. I will be there every night and on Saturday for the service and if there is anything I can do...we can do...please do let me know!
I love you so much!

Jada's Gigi said...

I have been wondering about at last, free at last...Thank God almighty free at last!

If you can see what I see said...

I am so sorry sara you probably think that i am a nut but for some reason my comment posted to your blog was suppose to go to amber...not sure what happened there but i am sorry.

Sara said...

i figured the thought was meant for am. no problem.

Saija said...

when a believer goes home - the heavens open wide and there is such a welcome for them ...